Satisfaction: the contentment one feels when one has fulfilled a desire, need, or expectation
2 o’clock in the morning and I am sitting in the sofa waiting for my challah to finish baking, it is already Friday.
You might think I am crazy, especially if I need to go to work in just a few hours. You see, during my day my brain
is busy and full of noise, work noise, traffic noise, kid’s noise, husband noise, house noise. So I find that when the
entire world in sleeping I am entitled to create my own noise, well more like my own silence.
I don’t do this often (stay up so late) but when I do, it somehow gives me a sense of satisfaction, accomplishment,
silence…….. funny enough just from this little corner of comfort I hear my son snoring, my husband joining the snoring
chorus, my daughter talking in her sleep and me, laughing at how funny it all sounds. I decide to just go to each room
and give everybody a kiss as they sleep.
I walk to the boys room maneuvering not to step on the clothing that is thrown on the floor, I just stand there
watching them, so amazed at how beautiful they are, how their bodies full of energy rest for the night and how in
just a few hours they will fill the space with smiles and commotion. I kiss them on the forehead and pray to G-d so
he can forever protect them and guide them.
I continue to my daughter’s room but she is not there…… she is in my bed next to my husband, what a precious
moment, she is resting her head on her father’s shoulder, he snores and she is having a full conversation for which
I cannot understand a word. I slowly walk her to her bed, tuck her in, and kiss her also on the forehead, praying to
G-d to watch over her and give her infinite blessings.
I glance at my husband from the door as I am tempted to wake him up so he can share with me this moment,
luckily for him the timer of the oven beeps, reminding me that the challah is now ready. And if I wake him up he
will for sure think that it is time for some “midnight action”. Thank G-d for the oven beep…….
As I stand all alone in the middle of the night, the silence after all the noise, the midnight life that a household
experiences when nobody is watching, a silent prayer that only a mother can share with “Bore Olam”, the smell
of Shabbat in my house, and the smile on my face as I go to sleep just for a few hours. It all gives me a sense of
I didn’t stay up for much longer, I made sure the lights are off; the doors are locked, and that the alarm is set for
5:30am. It is my time to sleep, next to my husband joining him on the never-ending snoring choir, and believe it
or not……. yes the snoring part after so many years together……… 100% SATISFACTION.